It's Saturday... and I had a class this morning. My student number went from six to sixteen in the course of the day. But's that's alright; I had fun anyway and got to see all I had programmed. I need to come up with something awesome and fun to do next Saturday. I am sure my brain will come up with something by Wednesday (and come Friday evening, I'll be eating a pencil and dancing the hokey-pokey, you´ll see...)
Next week we have the visit from Chihuahua. That means that my boss will be on my tail about things that are not even in my list of "to do". I shall go unnoticed all week... or at least I hope I will. I am not too thrilled about that, don't care how much people keep insisting that this visit is good. I am still kind of pissy about the fact that I waaay behind on my schedule. True, true, I was the first one dancing all happy 'n' stuff when we didn't go to school back in September, but now is now and now I need one week to finish, week which I won't have.
I heard ne new Eminem/Rianna song. I loved it. I loved it so much I played it over, and over, and over on Friday untill my niece came to the room and asked if I didn't have anything else to listen to... or headphones. I have headphones... acfter hessitating for a while, she stood there, her hands on her waist, and said "please, put them on," in perfect english. I was so proud of ther that, just for that, I did.
I enjoy driving in the morning and singing songs I love that come in the radio aloud, then freaking people out when they see/hear me. I think that is one of the small little things that make me smile lately. It's a (fake, I know) feeling of being free that I cannot seem to be able to trade for anything in this world. Not even sex. I think I like driving more than I do sex... and it's not like I don't have some once and again, I still enjoy driving more. Could it be the adrenaline of running through the streets of what is now considered -THE- most violent city in the world? Kind of has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?
I plan to do a overhall to this page. New banner (I have photoshop!!) and new bkground picture. I will download all the prutty things I need to do this... and maybe have it up and running during the week. Oh! I forgot to tell that we had the 1st meeting of the workshop yesterday... Oh! I forgot to mention the workshop!
I'm going to be part of a new literature workshop coming October 10th, and I am all excited about it. It's going to take place at the URN and the add for it will come out on tomorrow's NORTE newspaper. All giddy n all because we're going to have a blast and going to be agreat workshop, I just know it!! I will post more details about it in my literature blog, A Panda's Notebook (pandanotebook.blogger.com) so, stay tunned!!
For now, I leave you with this week's favorite song...
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
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