I really would like to take a moment here and say that even though hell and high water are arriving into town, into people's lives and into other not so grateful news, I really don't feel a bit empathic towards them. And I feel bad, I do. Children killing children, indiference swimming about. It's like a world social climate boom... I don't know. Maybe I'm just too disconected to the real world because I have to or else I go crazy, maybe I'm just denying in order to continue living in aworld away from the world. Too many personal problems to care about the other's. Too many scars to carry around yours.
Bleh!
Angie and I had sushi yesterday and we were sort of shocked to see how we both cannot stop being friends. We're always in each other's minds and hopes for a happy future. I am glad she has found an enjoyable work. And I am slowly working on to mine. One day, one day.
In the Meantime...
I missed yesterday's challenge. I realize that. And I want to keep up. So, today I will do day two and so on. I don't wanna do two songs in one day, because that sort of defeats the purpose of it hahaha
It's been quite the week. Today is a Lazy Sunday and I am reminded of how much I enjoy witchy shopping. I got some new candles and incense and I even got me a new pentagram which I am purifying as of right now.
If all goes as planned, I will be starting to write some stories soon. I am sort of psyched. I am still not sure if to write them here or what. I will opt in the "or what" category because I know myself far too much to be angry at me for not pulling through. One month left of school and I am already making plans.
1. I want to take a break from teaching.
2. I want to get back to the full feeling of writing.
3. I want to get purged from all evil (facebook)
4. I do want to get myself a new computer. This one is the school's computer. I still owe them a laptop (I am still not sure on how the hell I am gonna pay them that)
I will see Angie tomorrow. It's been almost a year.
:) Good vibrations. I want to start this blog with something I haven't done in a while.. I will start with the new 30 days of music challenge. I got this new list from a page... So... I wanna start yes?
Favourite song with a colour in the title
Ice House -- "Electric Blue"
I find this song to be quite cool. Yeah, I know, I am retro. Who cares. I sure don't :P
Me gustaría decir que mi obsesión reciente por la canción de Lady Gaga "You and I" tiene que ver con mi vida personal.... pero la verdad no. Es como de esas veces en que una rola te emociona a tal grado que como que te mueve el tapete. Cuando era más joven se me daba con la de Sleepwalker: ya nomás escuchaba esas primeras notas y luego luego me catapultaba a otra dimensión. Ahora vuelvo a sentirlo con la momma monster y su canción You and I.
Lo malo es la poca tolerancia que se tiene en esta casa al repetir una rola una y otra y otra vez.
"You And I"
Lady Gaga
It’s been a long time since I came around
Been a long time but I’m back in town
This time I’m not leaving without you
You taste like whiskey when you kiss me, oooh
I’ll give anything again to be your baby doll
This time I’m not leaving without you
He said sit back down where you belong
In the corner of my bar with your high heels on
Sit back down on the couch where we
made love for first time and you said to me
Something, something about this place
Something ‘bout lonely nights and my lipstick on your face
Something, something about my cool Nebraska guy
Yeah something about
Baby yoü and I
It`s been two years since I let you go,
I couldn’t listen to a joke or rock `n roll
Muscle cars drove a truck right through my heart
On my birthday you sing me a heart of gold
With a guitar humming and no clothes
This time I'm not leaving without you
Ooh-oh ooh-oh
Sit back down where you belong
In the corner of my bar with your high heels on
Sit back down on the couch where we
made love for first time and you said to me
Something, something about this place
Something ‘bout lonely nights and my lipstick on your face
Something, something about my cool Nebraska guy
Yeah something about
Baby yoü and I
Yoü and I
You, yoü and I
You, yoü and I
You, yoü and I, I
Yoü and I
You, yoü and I
Oh yeah! I'd rather die
Without yoü and I
C’mon!
Put your drinks up!
We got a whole lot of money, but we still pay rent
‘Cause you can’t buy a house in Heaven
There’s only three men that Imma serve my whole life
It’s my daddy and Nebraska and Jesus Christ
Something, something about the chase
Six whole years
I'm a New York woman, born to run you down
So have my lipstick all over your face
Something, something about just knowing when it's right
So put your drinks up, for Nebraska
For Nebraska, Nebraska, I love you
Yoü and I
You, yoü and I
Baby! I rather die!
Without yoü and I
Yoü and I
You, yoü and I
Nebraska! I rather die
Without yoü and I
It’s been a long time since I came around
Been a long time but I’m back in town
This time I’m not leaving without you.
It's Saturday... and I had a class this morning. My student number went from six to sixteen in the course of the day. But's that's alright; I had fun anyway and got to see all I had programmed. I need to come up with something awesome and fun to do next Saturday. I am sure my brain will come up with something by Wednesday (and come Friday evening, I'll be eating a pencil and dancing the hokey-pokey, you´ll see...) Next week we have the visit from Chihuahua. That means that my boss will be on my tail about things that are not even in my list of "to do". I shall go unnoticed all week... or at least I hope I will. I am not too thrilled about that, don't care how much people keep insisting that this visit is good. I am still kind of pissy about the fact that I waaay behind on my schedule. True, true, I was the first one dancing all happy 'n' stuff when we didn't go to school back in September, but now is now and now I need one week to finish, week which I won't have.
I heard ne new Eminem/Rianna song. I loved it. I loved it so much I played it over, and over, and over on Friday untill my niece came to the room and asked if I didn't have anything else to listen to... or headphones. I have headphones... acfter hessitating for a while, she stood there, her hands on her waist, and said "please, put them on," in perfect english. I was so proud of ther that, just for that, I did.
I enjoy driving in the morning and singing songs I love that come in the radio aloud, then freaking people out when they see/hear me. I think that is one of the small little things that make me smile lately. It's a (fake, I know) feeling of being free that I cannot seem to be able to trade for anything in this world. Not even sex. I think I like driving more than I do sex... and it's not like I don't have some once and again, I still enjoy driving more. Could it be the adrenaline of running through the streets of what is now considered -THE- most violent city in the world? Kind of has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?
I plan to do a overhall to this page. New banner (I have photoshop!!) and new bkground picture. I will download all the prutty things I need to do this... and maybe have it up and running during the week. Oh! I forgot to tell that we had the 1st meeting of the workshop yesterday... Oh! I forgot to mention the workshop!
I'm going to be part of a new literature workshop coming October 10th, and I am all excited about it. It's going to take place at the URN and the add for it will come out on tomorrow's NORTE newspaper. All giddy n all because we're going to have a blast and going to be agreat workshop, I just know it!! I will post more details about it in my literature blog, A Panda's Notebook (pandanotebook.blogger.com) so, stay tunned!!
For now, I leave you with this week's favorite song...
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts Just gonna stand there and hear me cry But that's alright, because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is I can only tell you what it feels like And right now there's a steel knife In my windpipe I can't breathe But I still fight While I can fight As long as the wrong feels right It's like I'm in flight High of a love Drunk from the hate It's like I'm huffing paint And I love it the more that I suffer I sufficate And right before im about to drown She resuscitates me She fucking hates me And I love it Wait Where you going I'm leaving you No you ain't Come back We're running right back Here we go again It's so insane Cause when it's going good It's going great I'm Superman With the wind in his bag She's Lois Lane But when it's bad It's awful I feel so ashamed I snap Who's that dude I don't even know his name I laid hands on her I'll never stoop so low again I guess I don't know my own strength
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts Just gonna stand there and hear me cry But that's alright, because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
You ever love somebody so much You can barely breathe When you're with them You meet And neither one of you Even know what hit 'em Got that warm fuzzy feeling Yeah them chills Used to get 'em Now you're getting fucking sick Of looking at 'em You swore you've never hit 'em Never do nothing to hurt 'em Now you're in each other's face Spewing venom And these words When you spit 'em You push Pull each other's hair Scratch, claw, bit 'em Throw 'em down Pin 'em So lost in the moments When you're in 'em It's the rage that took over It controls you both So they say it's best To go your separate ways Guess that they don't know ya Cause today That was yesterday Yesterday is over It's a different day Sound like broken records Playin' over But you promised her Next time you'll show restraint You don't get another chance Life is no Nintendo game But you lied again Now you get to watch her leave Out the window Guess that's why they call it window pane
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts Just gonna stand there and hear me cry But that's alright, because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
Now I know we said things Did things That we didn't mean And we fall back Into the same patterns Same routine But your temper's just as bad As mine is You're the same as me But when it comes to love You're just as blinded Baby please come back It wasn't you Baby it was me Maybe our relationship Isn't as crazy as it seems Maybe that's what happens When a tornado meets a volcano All I know is I love you too much To walk away though Come inside Pick up your bags off the sidewalk Don't you hear sincerity In my voice when I talk Told you this is my fault Look me in the eyeball Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist At the dry wall Next time There will be no next time I apologize Even though I know it's lies I'm tired of the games I just want her back I know I'm a liar If she ever tries to fucking leave again I'mma tie her to the bed And set the house on fire
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts Just gonna stand there and hear me cry But that's alright, because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie... I love the way you lie
One year has gone by since Michael Jackson died...and I can still say that I loved his music. At one point in my life I wanted to marry him... and yes, I am full aware of all his personal stuff.. but you just gotta love the artist.
This is probably my favorite song of his. Smooth Criminal... and even if Alien Ant Farm did a cover, it wasn't as good as the original one. This clip is from the movie This is It... yes, I did go to the movie theatre to see it... I actually went with my father and we got tickets to see it at the IMAX movie theatre in Juarez. It was full of people, all of us singing and cheering as if we were in a real concert. At the end of the movie, we clapped, wooooed and whistled. Go MJ!
Gonna sit down in the kitchen
And fix me something good to eat
And make my head a little high
And make this whole day complete
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on
Well pass it to me baby
Pass it to me slow
We'll take time out to smile a little
Before we let it go
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on
Well there ain't nothin' to do
And there's always room for more
Fill it, light it, shut up
And close the door
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on
We gonna sit around the kitchen
Fix us somethin' good to eat
And make ourselves a little high
And make the whole day complete
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on
Cuz we gonna lay around the shanty, mama
And put a good buzz on...
An oldie but goodie from the Panda memory archives. This song was from the Ghostbusters soundtrack and it was one of my favorites. It's called In the Name of Love and it's sung by The Thompson Twins Enjoy...
Hey you, I've seen your face before It's you in the picture which hangs on my bedroom wall Is it true? All of those things that they say about you So tell me, tell me, tell me what am I supposed to do
(CHORUS) In the name of love, yeah In the name of love In the name of love, yeah In the name of love
Well it's fun to think that I'm having the time of my life And it's true if all this around us is paradise, paradise, paradise, paradise But now I want to be left here with nothing at all Even the picture has fallen away from the bedroom wall
(REPEAT CHORUS x 2) In the name of... In the name of... In the name of... (REPEAT CHORUS x 2) In the name of love (REPEAT CHORUS x 2)
This next song is from the Ghostbusters II soundtrack and it's by Bobby Brown. On Our Own was a big hit back in the 90's!! The song is good... back when BB was good... and not all crack-head crazy.
Yeah I think this is gonna be another one of those funky ones Heart, soul, d-d-dance!
VERSE 1: If I was you, and you were me, you'd wanna be winning If you want something bad, yo, you gotta wanna give your all 'Cause I believe so much in we - and know we're not kidding If you feel the same as me, yo, you gotta want to take the ball
CLIMB: Now I find out that nothing is given Don't know where the cards may fall All I know is that we've gotta get it We've gotta make it on our own
CHORUS 1: Well I guess we're gonna have to take control (all on our own) If it's up to us, we've got to take it home (all on our own)
VERSE 2: Now can't you see that all we need to be a go-getter Gotta make your own decisions, you gotta go for what ya know It comes a time in our lives, you wanna be bigger Gotta keep, keep on pushing, you gotta learn to take control, yeah
CLIMB: Now I find out that nothing is given Don't know where the cards may fall All I know is that we've gotta get it We've gotta make it on our own
CHORUS 2: Well I guess we're gonna have to take control (all on our own) If it's up to us, we've got to take it home (all on our own) Gotta, gotta, take it home, gotta, gotta, gotta take it home
OW! UH!
Heart, soul, d-d-dance!
BRIDGE (RAP): Too hot to handle, too cold to hold They're called the Ghostbusters and they're in control Had 'em throwin' a party for a bunch of children While all the while the slime was under the building So they packed up their group, got a grip, came equipped Grabbed their proton packs off their back and they split Found about Vigo, the master of evil Try to battle my boys? That's not legal!!!
(Oh-we-oh) They're in control (Oh-we-oh) Y-Y-Ya know it (All on our own) I said they're in control (Oh-we-oh) Y-Y-Ya know it (Oh-we-oh) Y-Y-Ya know it (All on our own)
CHORUS 3: Well I guess we're gonna have to take control (all on our own) We got, we got, we got We got, we got, we got If it's up to us, we've got to take it home (all on our own) Too hot to handle, too cold to hold, they're the Ghostbusters and they're in control
Well I guess we're gonna have to take control (all on our own) Gotta, gotta, take it home Gotta, gotta take it home If it's up to us, we've got to take it home (all on our own) Gotta, gotta, take it home Gotta, gotta, gotta take it home
(Oh-we-oh) OW! (Oh-we-oh) Y-Y-Ya know it (All on our own) (Oh-we-oh) Uh! (Oh-we-oh) Y-Y-Ya know it (All on our own)
One of my favorite songs of all-time... I hope you enjoy it... I dedicate this to all my previous/recent lovers, boyfriends... and the occasional booty call.
It's been such a long time
I think I should be goin', yeah
And time doesn't wait for me, it keeps on rollin'
Sail on, on a distant highway
I've got to keep on chasin' a dream
I've gotta be on my way
Wish there was something I could say.
Well I'm takin' my time, I'm just movin' along
You'll forget about me after I've been gone
And I take what I find, I don't want no more
It's just outside of your front door.
It's been such a long time. It's been such a long time.
Well I get so lonely when I am without you
But in my mind, deep in my mind,
I can't forget about you
Good times, and faces that remind me
I'm tryin' to forget your name and leave it all behind me
You're comin' back to find me.
Well I'm takin' my time, I'm just movin' along
You'll forget about me after I've been gone
And I take what I find, I don't want no more
It's just outside of your front door.
It's been such a long time. It's been such a long time.
Yeah. It's been such a long time, I think I should be goin', yeah
And time dosn't wait for me, it keeps on rollin'
There's a long road, I've gotta stay in time with
I've got to keep on chasin' that dream, though I may never find it
Yesterday was the 1-year anniversary of Suky's Octopus' Garden. It was fun and filled with a bonfire that burned brightly at night. The chicken was good, the smores where awesome and the music... well, we had the Beatles in vinyl playing in the background. Of couse, we sang the Octopus' Garden as an anthem for the party to begin.
I had such a blast! XD Telling ghost stories, sharing laughs, good company... What else could you want??
Oh yeah... of course...
Octopus's Garden
The Beatles
(Dedicated to the Octopus's Garden)
I'd like to be under the sea In an octopus' garden in the shade He'd let us in, knows where we've been In his octopus' garden in the shade
I'd ask my friends to come and see An octopus' garden with me I'd like to be under the sea In an octopus' garden in the shade.
We would be warm below the storm In our little hideaway beneath the waves Resting our head on the sea bed In an octopus' garden near a cave
We would sing and dance around because we know we can't be found I'd like to be under the sea In an octopus' garden in the shade
We would shout and swim about The coral that lies beneath the waves (Lies beneath the ocean waves) Oh what joy for every girl and boy Knowing they're happy and they're safe (Happy and they're safe)
We would be so happy you and me No one there to tell us what to do I'd like to be under the sea In an octopus' garden with you.
To tell the truth I have no other means of inspiration but that of music. The perfect muse. She will never tell you you're wrong or that you're not as "cool" as the other kids or that you are anything less than who you are. Music is divinity to me, and thus is the key ingredient to most of my stories. I love music...
My old friend lives up in the mountains He flew up there to paint the world He says, "Even though interpretation's what I count on This little picture to me seems blurred Hard lines and the shadows come easy I see it all just as clear as a bell I just can't seem to set my easel to please me I paint my Heaven but it looks like hell"
Your blue might be gray, your less might be more Your window to the world might be your own front door Your shiniest day might come in the middle of the night That's just about right
He says, "Man I ain't comin' down until my picture is perfect And all the wonder is gone from my eyes Down through my hands and on to the canvas Still like my vision, but still a surprise" "Real life," he says, "is the hardest impression It's always movin' so I let it come through" And that. my friend, I say, is the glory of true independence Just to do what you do what you do what you do
Your blue might be gray, your less might be more Your window to the world might be your own front door Your shiniest day might come in the middle of the night That's just about right
My old friend came down from the mountain Without even lookin' he found a little truth You can go through life with the greatest intentions But you do what you do what you just gotta do
It's Saturday night and I am at CompuRent trying to update this blog as often as I can. I can now tell with out a shadow of a doubt that these computers don't look as cool as they did about three years ago. I love my laptop.
Today was a TKT meeting I had to do. Next week I have to pay for the test, but the teachers are gonna take it 'till May. I thought it might be a little more professional of me to tell them the news up close and personal. I was right. They were grateful. So now we have a study date from this saturday to the next and I need to get my mojo back on track. There is a good cahnce that the ITCJ is going to pay their teachers for the module (and we're talking about 20 teachers probably more) which means more work, hence, a pay raise.
Ca-ching!
But I can look ahead and look forward to a three day weekend. No class on Monday.
I wanted to go to this candle place today but I sort of rather go and tend to Angie. She's all bummed out that she has to move back to her parent's because she doesn't have a job and cannot pay for the rent in her place. It's a set back, I tell her, but if she looks at it in a positive perspective, she doesn't have to worry about the bills for a while and she can focus all her energy on to getting a job and continuing with her Master's.
So, it's Saturday... let's see what's on the Playlist!!
THE PANDA'S PLAYLIST
Today's playlist is brought to you by the fine people who invented mixed drinks in a can... you can now hammer yourself silly while driving without having to go to a bar and have the bartender take your keys... yeey...
1. Bad Girlfriend -- Theory of a DeadmanMy sister says this song is completely HER... which would be so awesome if she wasn't already MARRIED...
2. Possum Kingdom --- The Toadies This is a sexy vampire song... I love the I would treat you well, my sweet angel... PLUS, I have a lust-on-going relationship with this man's voice...
3. Lost in Emotion -- Lisa Lisa Because sometimes a panda needs her shot of cheesy 80's music...
4. The Blower's Daughter -- Demien Rice If you're suffering from a heartbreak, please don't listen to this song because it will only depress you more. This song touches the fibers.. I like it.
5. If You Seek Amy -- Britney Spears A stroke of genius from miss Spears. I love this song... love me, hate me, say what you want about me but all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek amy... hahahaha!!! I love it!
6. I kissed a Girl -- Katie Perry I KISSED A GIRL AND I LIKED IT! THE TASTE OF HER CHERRY CHOPSTICK!! YESSSSSS!!!!
7. Miles Away -- Madonna Miss Madonna has encapsulated my current situation with a dear friend... He'll always love me more, miles away... This song rocks, I don't care what others say.
8. Ticket to Ride -- The Beatles I think that The Beatles need no explanation. The BEST rock/pop band there EVER WAS and EVER WILL BE.
9. I hate my Life -- Theory of a Deadman I hate them hobos too...
10. I'll Fly Away -- Jars of Clay I know, hum? Quite the shockign turn of events. This song is very inspiring to me. In fact, Jars of Clay is probably my favorite group to get inspired by.
Check 'em out! Tell me what you think... and tell me if you have a favorite song too...
