Long Time

It's been quite the while since I've posted here. My apologies. I did not mean to let this blog go unattended.

There has been a lot going on around here. First of all, I just got an e-mail from ETS, in which (at last) we're being considered for a TOEFL unit. That is good. That means that I can _actually_ tell my boss to S.M.A. Not that I will, but I could, if I wanted to. This is ubber important since we've been chasing this wild goose for a couple of years now.

Then, AC/DC is coming to El Paso and at first I didn't know if I was going to be able to go? But now I know that I can. My sister (who now owns a Farm in Facebook) was thrilled and even did the hokey-pokey jump-o in the middle of the street when I told her. Her husband just gave us the crazy pigeon eye look, but he should know better by now that me and the sister? We're looney.

The quesadillas from the cafeteria are quite yummy.

Moving on

Oh so many things have been going on I can almost pee in excitement!!!

I'm Alive...

So damn easy to say that life’s so hard
Everybody’s got their share of battle scars
As for me I’d like to thank my lucky stars that
I’m alive, and well

It’d be easy to add up all the pain
And all the dreams you sat and watched go up in flames
Dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain
But not me, I’m alive

And today you know that’s good enough for me
Breathin' in and out's a blessin' can’t you see
Today's the first day of the rest of my life
And I’m alive, and well
I’m alive, and well

Stars are dancin’ on the water here tonight
It’s good for the soul, when there’s not a soul in sight
But this boat has caught its wind and brought me back to life
Now I’m alive, and well

And today you know that’s good enough for me
Breathin' in and out's a blessing can’t you see
Today is the first day of the rest of my life
Now I’m alive, and well
Yeah I’m alive, and well

I should be....

... sleeping instead of working

... working on my latest MA assignment (s)

... writing

... thinking about the suffering of others instead of bitching about my own

... praying more often

... going to church more often

... not gossiping as much as I do

... keeping away from trouble

... loving myself more and looking at my defects less

... eating pie!

... eating CHEESECAKE pie!

... eating CHEESECAKE pie from STARBUCKS!

... listening to music while I pretend I'm working.

... saving money.

... saving money so I can spend it.

... saving money so I can spend it in CHIMICHANGAS!

... writing a letter to Andrew

... writing a letter to Andrew and telling him how F-ed up he is

... more truthful about feelings

... writing a love letter

... picking wild flowers

... eating sushi from Katsura

... dreaming about you

Download Frenzy Friday

As every Friday, I am here, trying to download the new episodes of Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, and Supernatural, in spite of my sister's on-going mocking of my satisfaction towards the first two shows. I have been reading that the character of Izzie will be getting out of the show. Good. I think that the character should have died last season instead of George.

I have a very real, very hard problem to deal. I have no money to pay for the M.A. And what's worse, I have a debt that can possibly cover here 'till the end of my life... As for the TKT teacher's ordeal, I fear that the solution I have for her will not satisfy her... o thought, it should. I mean, she's gonna get the test PLUS the other 2 modules for free. What's the big deal and bargain of that, right?

I am still at a stand-still on my writing. It's like, I WANT to write, but then I get sucked into REALITY TRASH land and I can't help it. It's like a leprechaun who taunts me with goody reality TV like Rock of Love and Charm School, and all that yummy trash that gets fed to my brains via the tube. I like TV. There is nothing wrong with that, is there? My angel keeps insisting that it is when I allow it to take control of my creative bone like this, but then he shuts his pipe when the commercials are over.

As I shuffle between songs -- between the Beatles and Creedence and the occasional Kid Rock, I can't help but to wonder about what the years have made of me. It's rather confusing, to get into the philosophical debate with myself when all I can ponder is if I had done stuff different how different my life would be. I cannot complain. I love my friends, I love my life, but there is something deep inside me that tells me that there is more to life than this. There is more out there, at least for me. Can anyone relate? I bet all human being feel like that at some point in their life. Us Pandas? We do not know how to deal with it. We feel it so rarely.

Yesterday, after years and years of looking and searching and pondering brains for it, I finally found a song that I was looking for since I first heard it on those free CDs that an anime magazine hands out. The song -- a Japanese song I did now know who sang it, what was it called and what series it belonged to. All I knew was that I loved it and that it was upbeat. And yesterday I finally found it. It's a song called "Six Colors Boy", sung by Akiko Hanagata, and it belongs to the Crayon Shin Chan series. I could not find a better quality sound but now that I know more details about it, I can search for it on Taringa or other search engines...

^_____^ That made me very happy.

46% of files downloaded... Com'on! Two hours for download to be completed?! How slow is the net today!

Next episode of Supernatural promises to be funny and good...

And of course, we have not to overlook castiel... I have become one of Misha's Minions over the days.. and I must say, if I loved the character, I ADORE the actor!

I'll be back. Gonna go to cafeteria to buy Chimichangas...

Chimichangas == Chip's Verdes with Valentina salsa and Orange Fanta Zero... NOTE: Fanta Zero DOES NOT TASTE AS GOOD AS REAL FANTA!!!

..... and my stupid student showed up. I'm sorry. I shouldn't call students "stupid" even though they are. The bad part of this student in particular is that the actually flunked the English I class because he never showed up to class... and now he's taking the remedial class and NOW he's all responsible and stuff...

It's because I have absolutely no GANAS of giving a class... how fucked-up is that?

......... and I still have to talk to the Head Dean about the M.A. deal. God Save the Geeks!

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly

A cortar de tajo lo que no sirve y echarle ganas.....:):):)......tres reglas básicas: no es personal, cada uno responsable de sus sentimientos, y la vida no es justa

This sentence means Cut from the root all that is non-useful and keep going... three basic rules: it's not personal, each is responsable for their own actions, and life ain't fair. This has been placed on a dear friend's FB account and it made me feel a little better about the insanity that has been going on.

Let me start from the beginning.

TKT test came and went as scheduled on Saturday the 10th. There was 1 teacher whose exam was not there. Now, maybe it was a mistake from my part, maybe it was a mistake on the capturing of the exams... but the problem is that she wasn't there, in paper. In person, she was. And I completely understand why she would be mad as hell. The problem can be solved. She can take the test in January or March (still pending on what the IHouse situation is) and such... but I still have this nagging feeling about it. True, every nagging feeling I've been having has been proven WRONG every time, and I just hope this time is no exception. I have to confide in my angel, who has never left me to die alone. Right?


The test, however, was easy. I'm sure I got a lot wrong in module I as I was confused about this teacher situation and lost my focus... but I think that I have a good shot of passing. I hope we get the results soon... and I hope that this teacher situation gets solved through the smooth way. I doubt it, but there is no false alarm in hoping about it, right?

Pooh! I didn't win the Jose Revueltas prize... I shall try again...

I still have one more contest in writing to look forward to, though. And just because I didn't win this one, doesn't mean that the stuff I write is not good.

Tomorrow will be another day, when less stuff that's related to "bad luck" will be going on...

today has been.... okay

The One and Only....

So yesterday's Packers vs Vikings game was AWESOME! It was one of the best Monday Night Football games I have seen in several years. Amongst it all, the Vikings came out victorious with a 30 - 23 score over the Pack.

Yes, my heart is breaking.

On one side, I am bummed that my team, the Packers lost to their arch-rival, the Vikings. On the other hand, I am glad that at least Favre went all "in yo' face sucka!" with the Packers directory and chairpeople who casted him aside after last season. PLUS, he has become the only quarterback in NFL to have the distinction of beating ALL the NFL teams. How cool is that?

So, yeah. I'm a packer fan -- but I'm also a Favrette. What can I say?


New Look!

I have a new look in the blog. What do you think? I guess that the season calls for new looks and new waves. Sanhaim is close. The welcoming of the changing of the season and the rebirth of a new spirit. A season when the dead come out to party and we are reminded of how precious and beautiful life is.

So, this is the new look for the mind of the panda... and I hope that you all can begin to enjoy it.

In the meantime, I would like to say Thank You Goddess!! For the use of the Snip It tool in my laptop... isn't Sam and Castiel just TOO CUTE? These pics are taken from the Supernatural Episode "The End" from Season 5. Enjoy

Sam as Lucifer in Supernatural. I like the dialog between him and Dean, when he tells him about how he fell from grace. I think that Lucifer might have a point here... I mean, if it came down to being me instead of him, I think I would most def. see his PoV.

Oooh! this is Castiel as a human! Dean got thrown into the future by Zachariah and in this time slot of the future, Castiel turned human and has gone in a spiral of boose, drugs, and chicks. I love what Dean said to him later, about him not wanting Cas to change... and the look in Castiel's eye --- I mean, you can tell that he _knows_ something... but he just won't share with Dean -- YET. Supernatural has turned into a great watch and a good source of inspiration to a writer like me. I love Cas (Misha Collins) as a character!

Next Saturday is the Teaching Knowledge Test --- TEST. I am very nervous for this test, mostly because of all the pre-planning that has been taking over my life for the past three years and now it seems that we're almost out of the woods. I can just hear the cynics though... Yet, I know we'll do just fine and great. I have faith in my teachers!!!

Speaking of -- I got my results for Statistics and Psychology class. I am taking the Master's Degree in Education and this is my second trimester. I have an 80 in the fist one and a 100 score on the second one, which allows me to continue to have my scholarship for now. To tell the truth, I am quite shocked that I got the 80 in Stat. since I know something close to NOTHING of the subject: I've never been too good at math and this was no exception to the rule. I cannot understand, for the life of me, how in the world to use my brain in the subject. Psyche, on the other hand, is a subject I am most def. fond of.

Green Bay and Vikings. My heart is breaking! I am 100% a Packer Girl, but I cannot help but to cheer for Mr. Favre now that I know the whole sha-bang of the story! I mean, if I was in his shoes, I would probably do the same thing he did... and now they are 20 - 30 in the last quarter and probably Favre is on his way to hold yet ANOTHER record: being the ONLY quarterback in the NFL to BEAT EVERY TEAM...

O thought, I know there are some packer fans who are not taking the news as gracefully as I am...but what can you do, right?

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